Some days I get in the "funk" - I'm sure you know what I mean. The "dragging down", the feeling that there is so much and you are only one person. You are trying so hard and yet it is never enough. Feeling in "that place" today - if I could just change my perspective sometimes . . . see the glass half full . . . stop getting bogged down with every little thing . . .
And these two - trying every last little bit of patience I have - these little stinkers :)
Nicholas is full of strong will & tantrums these days . . . but lots of snuggles & hugs too. I think part of it is just frustration at not being able to communicate. He makes lots of sounds but struggles with the words. He is silly and mischievous. He is a true explorer & usually free of fear - except when it comes to people. He becomes very shy around other adults - but kiddos - LOVES them!!! He is totally a momma's boy - but only for like 5 minutes, and then he's all "Mr.Tough & Independent" :) He LOVES doing whatever Ryan is doing. I think he thinks he is 5 :) He is obsessed with Superheroes which I think is so funny because he isn't even 2 :) He also is obsessed with Cookie Monster too which is totally age appropriate :) He is very different from Ryan, so I feel as if I am starting new with "mommyhood" in respects to him - my approach to so many things is different with him. I am learning the toddler years all over again :)
Ryan is trying to be so grown-up. He is extremely bright, which can be both a blessing and a curse :) He questions alot, both in appropriate & inappropriate times. He is sweet and kind - his heart is so good. He tells me stories of how he sticks up for friends at school who are being teased & I am so proud of him. He is a reader - just pours over books. He LOVES technology too - TV& video games - it's often a struggle between us. There are moments I see him pulling away from me - trying his hand at a new world of friends & playmates. Tonight he told me I was his hero :)
Motherhood is full of ups & down, highs & lows, and when the day comes to an end - I try to look over all of it & just choose to be thankful, for every single moment of it.
No worries though - if you are looking for more than just my current thoughts on the journey of motherhood - I've got some scrappy to share too :) My recent layouts for Noel Mignon . . .
Off to clean up before bedtime :) I'll leave you with a tune for your evening . . .
Ahhhh, I hear you, Julie!!! Sometimes those days are very hard and very long. Whenever I feel that way, I re-read the Chronos article from Glenn. Thank you again for referring me to her blog. I enjoy reading it a lot.
ReplyDeleteOh Julie, I too hear you. I have been there so many times. Right now, struggling with my eldest. Sometimes, I wonder where I went wrong with her. And yes, with each child it is different. They are their own person and what works for one, doesn't necessarily work for the other. Your boys are so cute though!!! They just grow up so fast! Glad to hear Ryan is doing well in school. Ben is too. His teacher moved him to a different table because he is a good boy and doesn't follow what all the others are doing. He was moved to a table with a more disruptive child and the boy this girl was bothering was moved to Ben's spot. His teacher said Ben doesn't fall for her antics. So, it isn't fun for her anymore and she has settled down.
ReplyDeleteRight there with ya, my eldest is three right now, and I was just telling my hubs that she must have skipped her terrible twos and moved right into her terrible threes! Ever since our son was born (in June), she has such a great helper but also acting out A LOT. She sits in time out almost daily now, she purposefully disobeys, she ignores our requests, and she is RUDE! I just don't know what to think. My sweet girl has just become so different, literally overnight. We are trying to give her love and attention while at the same time taking care of our little boy. It's a rough go sometimes, but totally worth the effort.
ReplyDeleteOh Julie these are stunning LO's!! I have been following your creations for 3 years now and the LO's still amaze and inspire me. Thank you for that! :)
ReplyDeleteAs always, fantastic layouts! As for the mommyhood. I totally understand what you mean about your kiddos being opposite and you feel like a brand new mama with the struggles you go through with the second. I'm battling that myself right now. It is quite frustrating trying to figure out the balance of how best to deal with two totally different children and their issues.
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ReplyDeleteLove your layouts ... and that quote!
ReplyDeleteTotally get those feelings girl. ;) AMAZING layouts, as always...
ReplyDeleteHi Julie-
ReplyDeleteJust stopped by
to give a little "HI"!
Haven't done so in quite awhile. It's good to see that youa re still here- My how your boys have grown. Me? I'm cancer free for 2 years now, done with all the recon and the garbage that goes with it all. Life is Good!
Many blessing sent your way this Thanksgiving weekend-
Kathy Salazar