saturday . . .

5.22.2010

The past 2 weeks we planted seeds . . .

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we made pizza bread . . .

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we spent time downtown with cousins & Aunties . . .

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we enjoyed time with cousin Matthew . . .

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we played with friends at the zoo . . .

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we celebrated AK's birthday . . .

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we had fun at Bay Day . . .

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we worked on REALLY organizing the scrap room - almost done - here's a sneak peek at my ridiculous ribbon collection - sinful really . . .

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we spent the 15th celebrating me turning 33 - another year older (excuse the horrible pic) :)

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In my recent blog surfing, I came across this blog post excerpt from Stacey Hansen's site . . .

"Anticipation is one of those things that can be the best thing in the world or the thing that just makes you crazy. It can cause those little butterflies to flutter around in your stomach like nothing else. Especially when you are waiting on a miracle. A job, a baby, an answer. Time passes differently when you are waiting on something. So if today you are waiting, anticipating, holding out for an answer....be encouraged. Miracles happen. They are not planned, constructed, or to be manipulated. That would deny it being a miracle at all. Expect a miracle. It may not look all like you wanted it too or how you thought it would look when it gets there. But it will be a miracle indeed."

It is interesting, this quote. As many of you know, we lost our 2nd second just shy of 2 years ago when I was 24 weeks pregnant. It was . . . well just too impossible to put into words how difficult, how painful. Somehow, we made it through - only to finally decide to start trying again this past December & miscarry twice. The most recent miscarriage just barely 6 weeks ago. I have been so confused why all this would happen - why not just not get pregnant. People try & try & just don't conceive, but to conceive & lose your child no matter if it is 4 weeks, 5 weeks, 24 weeks . . . well it just makes you wonder, why would you have gotten pregnant only to then lose the baby . . . And then two weeks ago we discovered this . . .

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we weren't trying to get pregnant - in fact I was just about to go back on the pill - just this week it has really registered in my mind that I am pregnant. We have been to the doctor's and she feels VERY confident all is well. My HCG levels are totally normal & increasing properly (they were not with the last 2 miscarriages). I will be 6 weeks next Tuesday & we will be going in to see if we can hear the heartbeat. I know that there is no guarantee this will be a successful pregnancy - I have already experienced the "non-successful" pregnancy & I certainly know that it is possible it could end up being the reality here. I like the part of the post above that says "It may not look all like you wanted it too or how you thought it would look when it gets there. But it will be a miracle indeed." To me, I thought maybe this meant that amidst this very difficult journey of the past 2 years, a journey that definitely never "looked" like one would want a journey of this nature to "look" - maybe, just maybe, there is a miracle waiting here for us at the end of it all :)

ttyl - julie :)

49 comments:

  1. congratulations! i wish you a happy and healthy pregnancy!

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  2. Wow Julie!!!! Congrats!!! I`ll have you on my prayers! psss...you lokk great on the photo,I love those spontaneous pics
    A big hug for you!
    Luzma

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  3. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Julie! I hope that this pregnancy is a healthy one and wishing you all the best!

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  4. Congratulations! I REALLY hope it all goes smoothly for you!

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  5. congratulations Julie! I so hope that this all goes well for you and your family. sending positive thoughts your way.

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  6. Your entire post speaks to me, I'm teary, and I'm praying for you. I know all too well what it is like to be in that time, I know the heart ache and the constant reminders, I'll never forget it. I am now blessed with a daughter after years of what you are going through. Take care of yourself, I'm sending prayers up.

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  7. I am so happy for you and your family!
    I hope that this is successful this time around!
    Lots of hugs, thoughts, and prayers coming your way!
    Have a blessed weekend. Take care!

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  8. I am very happy for you and will keep you in my prayers. I dont know you and yet now I know your heart. I lost three babies after my son. One at 18 weeks, one at 8 weeks and another at 18 weeks. Those babies are my children and I love them and miss them. I did go on to be blessed with one more child... a beautiful little girl. I am sorry you have been through what I think is the worst kind of loss... one that most do not understand. I pray that this child blesses you with its joyous arrival just on time.

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  9. Julie, this just brought me to tears! I am so happy for you and will pray that all goes beyond well with this one....may you be blessed beyond belief! :)

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  10. Oh Julie!! This brought tears to my eyes too!!! I am over the moon, ecstaticly (if it is such a word) happy for you!!! I hope you are so blessed beyond measure!!!

    I love all of your photos... candids are the best!! Love the one of you!!!

    Huge hugs and the best of wishes for you!!! ~Michelle

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  11. oh sweetie!! How fantastic is this news?!! Will keep you in my happy/positive thoughts that 'this' is the 'one' for you - your miracle baby!! Congrats to you and your family.

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  12. Hi Julie!! Congratulations!!! I am so happy to hear your news. I am looking forward to seeing lots of future LO's of Ryan with his new little sibling!!! :) I'm sending positive vibes your way!! :) Love the cute photos too and happy birthday!!

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  13. Thanks for sharing bits of your life. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  14. Dear Julie!
    My Congratulations! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you! You really deserve that miracle!
    All the best for a healty pregnancy
    Julie

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  15. YAY, Julie. I hope that there is a little miracle waiting for you at the end of all of this.

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  16. Julie
    I love your blog and our sketches and seeing your candids of your precious little boy. Thanks for sharing.

    NOw I am going to lift you and your family up in prayer. Father, I lift up to you Julie and her little family and the possibility of a new little miracle in thier lives with the coming of a new little baby. I pray that you will keep Julie and this new little one healthy, keep the baby safe and let it grow and be born to be the miracle that we know you can perform. I give you thanks for this miracle in advance and will know that Julie and this unborn child are in your hands and thy will be done. In thy name I pray . Amen.

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  17. What a beautiful post, Julie. Brought me to tears. Congratulations on the beginning of your miracle! I am praying for you, your family, and your little one.

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  18. Beautiful post, Julie- I just sat here nodding my head in agreement with that quote. Congratulations! Keeping you, baby bean and your family in my prayers.

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  19. Congratulations Julie! your pics are great, love the one of the kidos playing in the rain puddles... hope this journey goes all the way to the end & you get your little miricale, you deserve it... you seem to be a very kind and generous person... thoughts for you, your family and that little sweet pea! XXX, Staci

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  20. Congratulations! What neat bit you found on the other site! I've pondered this topic often. I pray you have a happy and healthy pregnancy!

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  21. Congrats on the pregnancy, wishing you a healthy and safe 9 months journey...you deserve it!!!

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  22. I have tears of joy for you! Congratulations! I wish you and your growing family all the best life has to offer...and many many joys! Be well dear friend!

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  23. Amen to Earlene's prayer. I also said a prayer when I read your post. May God bless you and your family with this tiny little miracle. When I read your post I sensed peace and hope -maybe you are already feeling God's blessing with this pregnancy. Hope is also another word for anticipation! Hey, it is even a lovely name if you have a girl!

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  24. Praying for a safe and healthy pregnancy.
    Blessings on this little life growing.

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  25. Congrats Julie to you and you family!! I am truly so happy for you!!! May this be a true miracle for you! Wishing you a healthy, happy pregnancy!

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  26. Wow, Julie!

    Congrats for the new baby!

    xoxo

    MY SCRAP BLOG: http://www.sabrinamix.com/scrapbooking

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  27. Happy hugs for you and prayers for a healthy pregnancy and baby.
    Thank you for sharing your pictures, they are beautiful!

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  28. I'll be praying for a healthy and happy 9 months. That quote was an awesome one, thanks for sharing.

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  29. Thank you so much for sharing that quote. I've been thinking a lot the past few weeks of our baby we lost last August and the quote really touched me. I pray you have a happy and healthy 9 months!!

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  30. Julie, I'm so glad that you have been spending some fun time with family and friends recently. I love the photos. Good luck completing organizing your scrap space. Looks great so far. You are in my thoughts with the pregnancy. I hope all goes well for you and the baby.

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  31. This post just gave me goose bumps...God is and amazing God and sometimes we don't understand why he does what he does but some day you will look back at this time in your life and it will all make sense. I will continue to pray for you and your family. I wish you nothing but the best through this pregnancy!

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  32. It's been said, but I still want to add my two cents - beautiful post. Thank you for sharing with all of us 'strangers'. You don't know how much ypur words and images can move people. You are an inspiration in so many ways.

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  33. Oh, how exciting is that news! God bless!!!

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  34. Julie congratulations. I'm praying for you and your family. I hope that you get the miracle that you deserve.

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  35. YaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaY! TRY to relax, I know that is probably impossible but...try.

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  36. Congratulations! I hope all goes well this time!
    Thank you for your sketches :)

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  37. So sorry about the difficult times you've been thru -- I'll be praying that this will be your miracle. Take care of yourself.

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  38. Congratulations! I'll be praying for your miracle!! :) What a wonderful reminder your post was, to celebrate every little miracle that comes my way!
    Thanks for everything you do and are. :)

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  39. Praying for you. I'm part of the miscarriage club too and know believing can be tough, but we get lucky and I have littles to prove it. Hugs!

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  40. Congratulations Julie! I'll keep you, the baby, and your family in my prayers!

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  41. wonderful news, julie. so happy for you and your family. i know how difficult it is to go through all that. everyday miracles do happen.

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  42. Julie - I knew it!!! Take care of yourself during this time - it will go by so fast and before you know it you'll have a new little scrap model!! All the best to you and your family - from your scrappy family. terryk.

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  43. Hi Julie ... I just stumbled across your blog today, having been "out" of the scrapping world for almost a year. I just couldn't leave without sending you a message first.

    I wish you all the best and I'm praying for you & your family. I've been thru a similar experience ... I really hope you get the miracle you've been praying for :)

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  44. Oh Julie, I will pray for you that this will be a picture perfect pregnancy!

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  45. Congratulations! I am so happy for you and your family :)

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  46. Oh Julie, congrats sweetie! You are definitely in my prayers. :)
    - April

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  47. Oh Congrats Julie! I will keep you in my prayers.

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  48. CONGRATULATIONS!!! Hope all goes well!!

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  49. Julie, such wonderful, wonderful news! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and continue to watch your progress. You go girl!
    Melinda x

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