thursday . . .

6.03.2010

"Hope is the thing with feathers, that perches in the soul, and sings the tune without words, and never stops at all." - Emily Dickinson

What a journey it has been - these past few years - and finally just about 2 weeks ago a miracle. Only to then be thrown back to the days of worry, hoping, wondering, as our sonogram came back with a gestational sac but no embryo, no heartbeat. Having the doctor tell you "usually you should see these things at this point, but there is still a chance it might work out. But if it doesn't, don't ever blame yourself - these things happen." Don't get me wrong, she is very nice but I think was just being realistic based on the findings of the sonogram & my history, but to hear that after everything that has happened - well, nothing short of devastating. I couldn't believe it all seemed to be happening again - as of last Wednesday, all looked bleak. I was prepared to go in yesterday and find out once again we lost a little one - and then the little peanut popped up :) The heartbeat was 140 bpm - everything looked fine :) Simply amazing . . .

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And yes, as far as we know it is only one - although the shape to the right threw me a bit - but the doctor says it is the yolk sac :) Thank you ALL for all the kind words & prayers & encouragement. I read each & every comment posted here & they truly mean so much to me!!! I will check back in tomorrow to share my June Guest DT spot & my layout/sketch for Magpie Club!! Thanks again everyone :)

ttyl - julie



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45 comments:

  1. Adrienne PierceJune 3, 2010 at 4:19 PM

    Oh My gosh!!!!!!!! I am so excited for you! I am continuing to keep you in my prayers and sending healthy baby vibes you way!!! I would to be suspicious of that spot!!! I hope you keep us updated and look forward reading them!! COngrats and God Bless!

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  2. Darlene S.June 3, 2010 at 4:20 PM

    Julie, I am so very excited and happy for you and your family! I pray that your pregnancy will be nothing but beautiful and joyful! Enjoy the journey to mommyhood times 2! :D

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  3. AprilJune 3, 2010 at 4:25 PM

    Oh Julie, this is such amazing news!! I am SO happy for you and your sweet family. Prayers coming your way for a wonderful pregnancy full of blessings and happy memories. ;)
    - April

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  4. li-bee-tiJune 3, 2010 at 4:29 PM

    Oh, I have tears in my eyes!
    I'm so excited for you and pray that you'll have a calm pregnancy that will end after 9 month with a healthy beautiful baby!

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  5. sarahwJune 3, 2010 at 4:51 PM

    Julie, I am so happy for you and your family. I hear all that you have gone through and wish you a healthy, relaxing rest of your pregnancy. :)

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  6. Kristin - The Fifth Sparrow No MoreJune 3, 2010 at 5:04 PM

    SO SO excited for you - I have been thinking about you and your little peanut. So happy that everyone is looking so well!
    -Kristin

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  7. KristieJune 3, 2010 at 5:24 PM

    HOORAY!!! What a HUGE relief!!! What a beautiful picture of your BABY! Oh Julie, you know how super happy and thrilled I am for you. This just makes my day as I have been so worried for you~

    Now, on to morning sickness! Sorry, but I knew that would make you giggle~

    HUGS~
    K

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  8. Sarah MullanixJune 3, 2010 at 5:24 PM

    such GREAT news!!! I'm sooooo happy that it looks like everything is alright, I was praying for you!!

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  9. Tara OrrJune 3, 2010 at 6:00 PM

    omgosh reading the start of this post I was like oh, no! SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!! Such fantastic news - again, congrats Julie - miracles truely do happen to wonderful people.

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  10. - - Sheryl - -June 3, 2010 at 6:11 PM

    You had me on the edge of my seat. Warm thoughts sending your way.
    Sheryl

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  11. Jade CookJune 3, 2010 at 6:33 PM

    how exciting. I am so happy for you!

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  12. CJJohnsonJune 3, 2010 at 6:43 PM

    Best wishes for a completely uneventful 8 months:)

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  13. Roulien StahnkeJune 3, 2010 at 6:44 PM

    What a beautiful picture of a miracle!! So glad everything looks fine now!! Continued wishes for a healthy, happy pregnancy!:)

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  14. Woolverton GirlJune 3, 2010 at 6:45 PM

    Wow! I'm so happy that your little peanut decided to come out of hiding so you could take a peak :) Sending happy, healthy pregnancy vibes your way!

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  15. ClaraDJune 3, 2010 at 7:00 PM

    YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Soooo happy for you ... keeping you in my prayers :)

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  16. MartiJune 3, 2010 at 7:20 PM

    Well, my goodness! That is one beautiful bean!! Here's to a H&H pregnancy!!

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  17. Aphra BolyerJune 3, 2010 at 8:14 PM

    That is the sweetest, most beautiful little peanut! Precious, amazing! Here's to continued miracles!

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  18. Teresa JayeJune 3, 2010 at 8:29 PM

    Praise the Lord for this wonderful gift! Best wishes for a happy pregnancy and healthy baby!

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  19. AprilJune 3, 2010 at 9:09 PM

    Hi again Julie. :) I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate you checking out my blog and seeing the page I did that was inspired by one of yours. Your comment made me smile! :)
    - April

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  20. Jennifer ShawJune 3, 2010 at 9:13 PM

    Hi Julie!! I was feeling upset at the beginning of your post and am so happy that this post has a happy ending!!! :) So happy for you all. I thought of you yesterday and was hoping that you were doing well, as you haven't posted in a bit. Take good care and soooo happy to see this first photograph of your sweet little one!!! :)

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  21. aimeeJune 3, 2010 at 9:25 PM

    i've been checking back often for updates... so glad it's going well!

    continued good thoughts!

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  22. UnknownJune 3, 2010 at 9:27 PM

    Best wishes and best of luck to you and your family! Put your feet up when you can!

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  23. Precious Memories Scrapbooking & MoreJune 3, 2010 at 9:32 PM

    OMGosh!!!!! I am so happy for you Julie, stay well!! Congrats!

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  24. Sherry EckbladJune 3, 2010 at 10:30 PM

    Oh Julie, What you have been through in recent months is more than most people could handle. You had me crying when I read your post and then they turned into happy tears. I will keep you and your little one in my thoughts and prayers.

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  25. IsabelJune 3, 2010 at 10:36 PM

    That is awesome news to hear!! God Bless you and your family and I pray that the next 8 mths fly by!

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  26. Laura-LeeJune 3, 2010 at 10:45 PM

    I was thinking about you today...wondering...so glad you posted. I'm so very happy to read the good news at the end of your post....tears again...just because I know. Things are looking good and our prayers are working....take care of yourself!

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  27. LyndalJune 3, 2010 at 11:00 PM

    Super, super news Julie. Thoughts & prayers are with you :)

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  28. Rusty Bucket DesignsJune 3, 2010 at 11:05 PM

    to Julie and family- what a ride you must be on. There is nothing worse in the world that waiting on a test result. I am so happy that little peanut is there with a happy heart - gotta be a little girl with that speed - ha!! All the very best to you. We, your blog followers, check back with you often and share your excitement. My daughter is expected our first grandchild in October, found out it is a girl and the paper and fabric I have been collecting....terry

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  29. MoMo sprnanyJune 3, 2010 at 11:07 PM

    I am so excited and thrilled for you! I send you joy and happiness!

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  30. MichelleJune 3, 2010 at 11:47 PM

    Oh Jules, you have been on my mind alot lately!! I keep looking for a post from you, wondering, worrying. So good to hear from you. You had me scared for a minute there in the beginning of this post!!! But, I am so happy to read further and find that all is good!!! Such a wonderful sight!! I hope you are feeling ok and don't get morning sickness too bad!!! You are always in my thoughts!!! Take care of yourself!! Sending you big cyber hugs!!!

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  31. Cindy GrohJune 4, 2010 at 12:45 AM

    OMG!! How exciting. I was almost in tears with the first part of your post but as I read on WOW!! Congrats:)

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  32. LisiBJune 4, 2010 at 12:52 AM

    I am soooo happy for you! Since I am going through a very similar situation, I know how you feel. Hang in there, Julie.
    Just try not to worry too much. It is not good for you and the baby.
    Biiiiig hugs from Austria

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  33. UnknownJune 4, 2010 at 1:02 AM

    I am thrilled for you Julie! I will keep you close to my prayers in the hopes that Baby Bonner continues to blow your mind!!
    Congratulations!

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  34. anaJune 4, 2010 at 1:18 AM

    julie
    congrats what a ride for you guys wish you the best and get rest you are going to need it when that baby comes you are not going to sleep LOL but you are going to love it best of luck rubber hugs Ana

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  35. CarolineJune 4, 2010 at 1:45 AM

    awww Julie, that is so awesome i am so happy for you guys, even had a tear looking at baby bonner.

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  36. kialaJune 4, 2010 at 8:40 AM

    I'm so happy for you! Congratulations!

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  37. JulieJune 4, 2010 at 10:04 AM

    OMG! I will keep my fingers crossed for little Baby Bonner! Really amazing that picture!
    Lots of Love!
    Julie

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  38. TamiJune 4, 2010 at 1:22 PM

    All I can say Julie is that picture is proof of the power of prayer! Girl you have gots lots of them for you and that little one-I am soo glad it is working so far-God Bless

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  39. EricaJune 4, 2010 at 2:37 PM

    Congratulations!

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  40. UnknownJune 4, 2010 at 2:58 PM

    So happy for you!

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  41. ErinJune 4, 2010 at 4:09 PM

    I had to hold my breath when I started to read. I'm so happy that things are progressing and you will be in my thoughts for a safe and uneventful remainder of your pregnancy!

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  42. LizJune 5, 2010 at 6:20 PM

    So happy for you Julie! Just take it easy hon...you have a long and wonderful road ahead and this little one is absolutely precious.

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  43. Jacey's MomJune 5, 2010 at 9:39 PM

    Julie I'm so excited for you. =)

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  44. kim.momJune 8, 2010 at 4:33 AM

    SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!! What a sweet miracle!!! I wish you the best!

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  45. JeanAnneJuly 7, 2010 at 5:52 PM

    Blessings to you! I can only imagine how thrilled and anxious you must be feeling. Enjoy!

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